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I can't believe everything that has happened these last few days. It feels so surreal and I'm overwhelmed with joy. However at the same time still in awe for some things. But I guess it's happened and now it's time to move on. The start of it all. This is going to be quite a fun and interesting year, our last year together, the senior class of 2010.
Banquet was pretty good I guess overall. Didn't quite get outstanding cadet, but that's ok. I'm probably the only group commander ever not to get it. I got the American Legion Award for Scholastic Excellence as my 2nd national, got top performer and community service with excellence award, and finally got that color guard ribbon! The new top 5 is as follows:
Group Commander: c/Capt. Andy Quach
Deputy Group Commander/Inspector General: c/Capt. Colin Chen
Director of Operations: c/1st Lt. Sharon Lee
Director of Operations Support: c/1st. Lt. Philip Quach
Senior Enlisted Advisor: c/SMSGT Jenifer La
So there it is. Congratulations everyone on a job well done and an excellent year. I can't wait to start next year and get everything going, I have many things planned and hopefully it all goes well.
This one test is what everything depends on. What I've been working three long years for. This moment this one test will determine if I have succeeded or not. I really want this to be the best. There's nothing else I would want more. Ugh we'll see in 25 days.
So the last drill competition of the year was yesterday at Lowell High School. Woke up really early at 4:50 AM. Got ready ate some Cookie Crisp cereal then went to school. Got to school around 5:45 and there was no buses. So we waited for 15 minutes or so then the buses came. Bus ride to Lowell was I guess an hour? I slept through most of it, but I had a huge stomach ache. First event was Armed Color Guard. We did alright except we went out of bounds and did an extra command. Then Armed Inspection, which was a total joke, they asked me one question and it was really easy lmao. Next was Armed Regulation I thought we did pretty good and nothing really went wrong except that during column of files we were off step from Phil but I was on step with Jonathon O_o. After that I was all done for the drill season so just watched all the exhibitions. IDR after that was bullshit. I was a few people from winning I'd say 2 or 3, then some judge just randomly walks up to me and taps me out? I was at present arms and I don't anything was wrong, I don't know maybe my feet weren't at 45 or something. We placed first in Unarmed Colorguard and Unarmed Regulation. Second in Armed Regulation. Third in Armed Inspection, Armed Color Guard, Armed Exhibition, and Unarmed Exhibition. We finished the competition third overall. Who knows I think we should have placed higher and there was something wrong, but who knows what happened. So this drill season is over, and it was pretty long. One more drill season left and it'll be all over, hopefully next year we'll go to Air Force Nationals. I need to do my history extra credit now gg hopefully I finish.
What's going on? I try so hard to exceed I finally believe that I do and am among one of the best, yet I feel as if I am not recognized. But what do i know. Maybe I'm overreacting or what not. Maybe I'm not as good as I think I am. I don't know. All I know that it's not as fun anymore and it's getting really frustrating due to so many other factors other than this, although this is a major one. But who knows what will happen I already paid might as well go through with it. Quitting should never be an option. Quitting only shows that you've given up and lost.
So I am using this new thing, cause I have nothing better to do. I should write a long entry cause there's nothing better to do and procrastination is fun.
Lately, as in the past hour or so, I've been looking back at some things and I've realized how much I've actually changed since 6th grade or even from middle school. Everything is so much different. People whom I used to be really close friends with, I rarely talk to now. It sucks sometimes to know that I lost someone who used to be so close, but it's life. And I'm glad I listened and chose this path, because it helped me open myself up more. I feel like such a different person from who I used to be and I sort of like it. I like growing up and all that stuff, but I feel as if it's going by too fast now. Junior Year sucks and its almost over and high school is over in almost a year, but I sort of don't want to leave high school quite yet. The college process is daunting me. I can't narrow my list sufficiently enough and I'm worried I won't get into some of the schools I would like. I still can't help but look back at my entire life and how much I've changed in a measly three years of high school. I've felt like I matured so much more and I don't know how to explain it, but ya. I'm glad for all that I've done and I really don't want to grow up so fast. But it's inevitable and it will happen so might as well embrace it. This entry is a bunch of random stuff. I really need to jump on some opportunities instead of just letting them slip away. I guess I need a little more confidence in my self and maybe a little more self-esteem. Why can't I do this? What is it about this person that keeps me so attached. What am I to do? There are way too many questions. Why are you so secluded? Do you know already? What do you think? Why can't I just say it? ugh. I should use this to type professionally in.
